I solved the problem of envy by accepting the fact that I am a jealous person.
That sounds paradoxical. But like it or not, if we walk in the light, then we will cast a shadow. The only way to get rid of your shadow is to walk in darkness.
The women who led the Spiral Dynamics workshop subsequently led multi-week sessions on Integral Life Practice. In one of these sessions we were told to pair off. Each person was to give her partner a word to meditate on. My partner gave me the word ACCEPTANCE.
That was huge. For some reason I had trouble just speaking the word. But I knew immediately it was the right word.
Its meditation was transformative. I stopped hating myself. I stopped wanting to change my wife and children. I stopped projecting my image of perfection onto the people around me. I stopped being Agent Smith, and just let myself be who I am, shadow and all.
Now when I feel jealous or inadequate, I recognize that’s just my soul casting its shadow. I don’t try to deny it, or eliminate it. I just accept it and move on.
That is what acceptance allows me to do: move on. It is so simple, and so powerful.
I believe that is what the Apostle Paul is trying to tell us in his letters: that we are accepted and complete in Jesus. There is nothing we can do to make ourselves that way. We are made that way through the Christ.